Service Her Regularly
Cat told me that since I was no longer going to access to my cock that it I had to help her have orgasms every day in other ways. It’s never been hard for me to help her have an orgasm by just touching her with my hands and that is all that we did during the first few weeks of my chastity. After a while she wanted me to lick her, something I had offered to do many times but something we hadn’t done in the many years we had been together. It was fun showing Cat my oral skills and she is highly responsive to that kind of stimulation. I am also able to go inside her this week using the strap-on she had brought. It was wonderful seeing her satisfied by my thrusting, but this kind of sex makes me even more frustrated because I don’t feel anything with my fake cock while my actual cock just hangs there needing to be touched just below.
One day after I helped her have many orgasms and Cat seemed particularly satisfied she said “Maybe one day you could have a little squirt too.” This was maybe the worst thing she could have said to me. If I know that there is no chance that will get to orgasm then I can stop thinking about it. But now I think that if I do well enough that Cat may let me get get some relief too. Now, every time I am with her I am trying to gauge if this time I did well enough for her to reward me. Apparently I haven’t done well enough yet.
Now, that I can’t touch my cock the only thing I can do is to fantasize. For me there is now only one person to fantasize about, the one person who can allow me any form of sexual release, Cat. Now, every time I want to masturbate I find myself going to Cat’s room to help her have an orgasm. Now she is getting off at least twice a day and I am reduced to waiting for her to decide to unlock me. It occurs to me that the more attentive to her as a result of being locked up the less incentive she has to unlock me, but I don’t know what to do about that.
Update:
As horny as I am becoming, something unexpected is happening. Now when Cat has an orgasm it is starting to become a kind of sexual release for me. I can feel really horny and when I lay down next to Cat and touch her, then when she has a sexual release I don’t feel that horny anymore. I wonder if there is something released in my body when Cat has an orgasm. This now makes me want to touch her even more. Now I worry that I could be bothering Cat by wanting to be too affectionate every day.
Update:
When I was tied up today Cat put a gag in my mouth that held my mouth open. She said that she had a special gift that she wanted to give me me. In that position I knew to be scared. Cat showed me a small bottle of her urine and told me that I had to drink it or else I wouldn’t be allowed to touch her. With the gag in my mouth I couldn’t ask her to clarify how long that would be for, but my mind raced. If I didn’t touch her would she then be even more mean to me? Having lost the ability to orgasm for myself would I now lose the ability to feel release by her orgasm? If I didn’t service her would that mean someone else would be servicing her? I drank all of her pee, doing as instructed and not spilling a drop. The taste was horrible! I just hope this will not become part of daily ritual. Maybe I could get used to the taste of Cat’s pee eventually.